Adopting Sasha - The Journey 2009

A few thoughts I don't want to forget...

My mind is shot!  This blog is more for me than for the friends that read it because I know one day (like tomorrow) I am not going to be able to remember certain things.  I guess I am just so distracted that I can't think.

So anyway, I am just going to be completely honest for a minute.  I have had some fearful moments over the last few days and weeks as the end draws near to bring Sasha home.  I know it is perfectly normal but I have just been praying and pleading with God to let everything work out with our new family.  If there has been something to worry about, then I have worried about it.  I have worried about how everyone's going to adjust, I've worried that Sasha would miss Russia and his friends, I have worried about the language barrier, I have worried about finances for tutoring and medical expenses, I have worried about how Sasha will do at the hospital and if he will be mad at me for making him go so soon....basically, you name it, I have probably worried about it at one point or another in the last few days.

So the other night I was taking a hot bath and re-reading this awesome book called "Forgotten God"...it's all about the Holy Spirit. Great, great book....you gotta get it! I had just finished the first chapter and was going to stop and pray and then finish reading in the bed.  So I laid there and just begged God to give me some confirmation that I am doing the right thing and that this wasn't just an emotional decision. I prayed that He would calm my fears and remind me that He's got it under control and He doesn't need my help.

I got out of the tub, came down stairs to get something to drink, went back up and laid down to read some more.  I opened the book to chapter 2 and you will not believe it....the next chapter was titled "What Are You Afraid Of?"(remember this book is about the Holy Spirit) It was so apparent that God was speaking to me that it was almost freaky.

You know, God should only have to tell us something once, but he knew in my case that reinforcment might be good:) So the next night he reconfirmed that adopting Sasha is his idea not mine. My brother Jeff came by to bring me a birthday present. He said he spent half the night in the book store looking for the perfect book for me....and after reading the back cover of "You were Born for This" he decided this was the one. Listen to this....it says "The truth is, you were born to live a supernatural life doing God's work by God's power. You were born to walk out your door each morning believing that God will use you to deliver a necessary miracle to someone in need...You were born for this!" I know some would just say Im' crazy or that's just coincidental...but I believe with all my heart that these are the exact things that I directly asked God for on Sunday night in the bathtub. CONFIRMATIONS that I am doing what God wants me to do in regards to adopting Sasha. His fingerprints are all over this journey!!!

I could stop there and that could be more than enough from God, but He continued throughout the week to bring reminders to me that I am where I am supposed to be.

I promise, two more examples and I'll stop......So while I was reading the new book that Jeff gave me I remembered two prayers that I have prayed over the past few years and this book triggered those memories which once again confirmed things to me. 1) I use to pray that God would do something so amazing in my life that it could ONLY be explained as a God thing. That my life would be a living testimony without words. 2) There was a popular book a few years ago called "The Prayer of Jabez" and in the prayer I asked God to expand my territory of influence for Him.  God has expanded my territory beyond anything I could have ever imagined. Russia??? I did not choose Russia or adoption (ask anybody that knew me a little over a year ago). NO! God sent this precious child from Zelenogorsk, Russia to Loganville, Georgia to pick ME to be his mother. This experience has stretched me far more than I could have ever dreamed. Yet God has been faithful every step of the way and has gone before us and prepared the way and shame on me for doubting.

So to wrap this all up, I just want to say I really do believe I am doing God's will for my life but the enemy can't stand it and so he has to keep me second guessing at every turn. 

I guess my request to you is that you would just pray for us....all of us, Kevin Allison, Sasha and me. Pray that we will be reminded daily that this is God's calling on EACH of our lives and that God's peace and provision will reign in our lives.....and that I will just QUIT worrying:)

Love everybody!!!

~Angie 

Second Trip to Russia

Monday January 18th I received an email that our court date had been set for January 28th, 2010. YAY!!!!!  So we franticly started our travel arrangements and sent off for our Visas.  We took off on the 25th towards our destination......St Petersburg, Russia. 

Travel was not as smooth as our first trip.  Because of the short travel notice we had to take what flights were available.  We left Atlanta, flew to Chicago and then on to Munich.  Upon arrival in Munich we had to circle for a while until we could land due to snowy weather.  Almost certain we would miss our connecting flight, we ran off the plane and on to the flight board to find our next gate.....no such luck, flight was CANCELLED:(  After standing in a line for about an hour to see what could be done, we were rebooked on another airline to fly to Moscow and then another flight to St Pete. After a lengthy walk to another terminal, we boarded our next flight.  Once on this plane we sat at the gate for about an hour waiting to take off which guaranteed we would miss our last flight to St Pete. By this time I'm losing my religion!  Not sure what time it is in Atlanta at this time but pretty sure I had been awake for well over 24 hours.  On top of that, I realize my mom is getting worried about why I have not called yet.  We had a world phone, but due to operator error we could not make the calls go through.  By the time we arrived in Moscow, after nearly 30 hours of traveling, no phone service to call home to a worrying family, noone who speaks English, a missed flight and -11 degrees...I was a wreck!  We finally got our flight rescheduled and were on a shuttle bus to a different terminal and I had had it!!!  I finally just said in a rather loud voice across the bus, "Does ANYBODY speak English" and praise the Lord a kind man from Norway said "What do you need?"  Awww, English....music to my ears.  He explained why we were not able to make phone calls on our phone and so then I dialed my parents.....Well, being the daddy's girl that I am, as soon as I heard his voice I started crying. Daddy's know just what to say to their little girls (usually)...He said "what is wrong with you? You are stronger than this and you need to suck it up".  haha...well, I did:)

We finally arrived in St Petersburg 7 hours late. Sergei picked us up, dropped us off at our Hotel and I popped a benedryl and enjoyed 8 glorious hours of sleep. 

The next morning we headed to the orphanage to see Sasha.  On the way to the orphanage we were surprised with a great treat.  Nina asked if we would like to bring Sasha back to our hotel to spend the night and ride with us to court the next day.....I was like DA DA DA!!!! That's Yes in Russian:)

Sasha was so excited to see us and since he knew we were coming, he had a little suit and tie on for the occasion.....what a cutie pie!

I'm not sure who was more excited about him coming with us to the hotel.  It was great day and God knew I needed some good news after the day before.

Poor little Sasha couldn't wait to get to the room.  The first thing he wanted to do was take a nice hot bath. (he only gets one a week at the orphanage).  After that we went down to the hotel restaurant and had dinner.  He was an eating machine!!

So we had a sweet time with our boy and a restless night of sleep for all because of all the excitement.

Thursday morning we headed off for our court hearing....nervous, hungry(too nervous to eat), tired and hoping for the best. 

Court was good....not anything like you would expect of a courthouse or courtroom. In fact, we were the last case to be heard in that particular location because the building is in such bad shape they are afraid it may collapse soon...I'm glad they didn't tell us that before court:)

After all was said and done we were granted permission to adopt and told we could take custody on Feb. 9th, 2010.

Despite the 7 flights and 49 hours of flying and only 2 days actually in St Pete it all became worth while in that very moment that I heard I get to be Sasha's mama.  

Kevin will leave on Monday the 8th to return to bring our boy home.  The trip will be long due to acquiring passports and exit interviews at the US Embassy in Moscow. We decided for just one of us to go back due to the expense of traveling.

Looking forward to an incredible reunion on Friday night, the 19th!

Saturday and Sunday in St. Pete, Russia

We started the weekend off with a trip to visit The Hermitage Museum with Oksana....great to have your own translator.  Incredible place!!!  It was about a 10 min. walk from our hotel and we stopped at a yummy bakery on the way.

Sergei picked us up at 1:30 and we drove to the orphanage to visit with Sasha and got a very special treat to see him in a play performed at the orphanage for a group of Swedish doctors who have offered to provide medical assistance to a number of the children at the orphanage, free of charge. It was really impressive...a local theater company has been working with the children there and the kids did a great job...not your typical school play.  What a great opportunity for those poor children who have such limited opportunities in their lives. Sasha was definitely the cutest actor in the play:)

A few weeks ago Sasha told me that he has a godmother, named Olga and that she wanted to meet us.  Sasha was able to call Olga and invite her to come to the play as well.  It was a bit awkward because she was very sad that we are taking Sasha to America.  She is a widowed psycologist from St Petersburg.  She has been visiting Sasha for the last 3 years when he would be in the hospital and they have grown very fond of each other.  She said he started out calling her Olga and then wanted to call her Mama. She said she wanted to adopt Sasha but said she could not afford it. You could tell Sasha was a bit torn about who to give his affection to last night...it was really odd.  He was calling us both mama.  I'll have to admit I am a little afraid that she may try to change his mind about being adopted, of course I have to have faith that God did not bring us this far for that to happen, but to be totally honest I was a little sad (maybe slightly jealous) when we left the orphanage last night.

She shared some things with us about Sasha.  She said that he went through a very angry stage because he couldn't understand why God let him have this disease that would kill him.  She said she took him to her priest to talk to Sasha and pray with him.  She also said that the doctors said that Sasha might live to be about 23 years old. I know that is a real possibilty, but I hope that getting him home and healthy and taking good care of him may give him extra time. I fill confident that getting him out of this envoronment  and to a place filled with love and lots of sunshine will definitely add years to his life. Regardless of how long we have him in our lives, I want to make sure he knows Jesus.

Today, we had a free day and we slept till about 11am then walked to the city and toured the Spilled Blood Cathedral. Then we did a little shopping and stopped to have sushi for dinner before walking back to our hotel.

Tomorrow we leave to start our trek home.  We will spend a couple of hours at the orphanage with Sasha one last time before heading to the airport. (I am so tired of having to say goodbye to this sweet child) We have a short flight to Amsterdam with an overnight layover and then Atlanta bound.  Can't wait to see my baby girl!  I want to feel some sunshine on my face...this is one of the dreariest places I have ever been.  All in all, it has been a good trip and very eye opening.  Can't wait to say "ya'll" and everybody know what I mean. I've been giggled at too many times at my southern attemp at Russian.  Time to come home where I belong!!

Long Day

Today was our day to visit the clinic for our medical exams. Quite interesting. The building was old, and very outdated compared to what we are use to in America. However, we have not had any unpleasant experiences with anyone we have had to deal with here.  Other than the culture shock the first day it's been a good trip. My eyes have definitely been opened to how good we have it in America. Other than the fact that it is a beautiful city with lots of rivers and canals and incredible architecture, it's very gloomy in many ways.

We had to fast this morning for our Doctor visits...blood drawn, chest xray, EKG, dermatology/oncology/neurology/psychology/infectious disease evaluations....took about 3 hours, no waits, very quick and smooth. Other than the humiliation of being topless for 4 doctors, one translator and my husband....no real complaints.  The lady with the needle was really good...that was my biggest fear of all.  I survived!  The funny part was the psychologist grilled Kevin and only asked me one simple question...what's that tell you?

After our clinic visit, we went and had documents notarized.  We have "Officially" signed the petition for adoption that will go to the Russian court.  Yay!!!

We discussed the potential dates for returning to Russia for court and it will take a lot of prayer to get back before mid January :(  If we don't get a court date before Dec.30th then we won't be able to come back until after Jan 10th because the judge will be off for the holidays.  They don't celebrate Christmas on the 25th, but they celebrate New Year's and Christmas on Jan 7th.  Please pray for speed!!!

We weren't able to visit the orphanage today so after our adoption stuff was completed we took a bus tour of the city of St. Petersburg.  It was a great way to see the highlights of the city without having to walk in the cold damp weather.  It was an audio tour in 8 different languages and we rode on the top floor of the double decker bus so we could see all of the sights really good. This is a great way to see everything especially if you don't care about stopping and touring every spot.  However, you can hop on and hop off if you'd like with an all day pass to ride....real reasonable too, only 350 rubles per person($12.50US).

After the bus tour we enjoyed a delicious dinner at McDonald's! My biggest complaint of Russia is that I have not had a good meal yet.  That's real important to me:) The McDonlad's was packed with Russians because they don't like their food either...lol. No really, it was packed.  We had to sit with another young couple who made out in front of us...for real. I started to kiss Kevin passionately in front of them too, but the smell of the Big Mac on his breath turned me off.  No kidding, we had no where to sit and so I tried to ask this young girl if we could sit at her table...I think she may have actually said 'no', but I pretended I did not understand...well, I really didn't quite understand. But we ate really fast and high tailed it out of there.  Nice experience!

So now we are back in our box...laying on the bed because that's all we have to sit on...and we are watching Russian video channel.

Tomorrow morning we are visiting the Hermitage with Oksana, our translator if it's not raining or snowing.  After that we head to the orphanage to see our baby boy perform in a play....awwww! Oh yes I will be videoing every bit of it. We will be visiting him tomorrow and Sunday before we leave on Monday. Layover in Amsterdam Monday night and home on Tuesday evening.

I miss my baby girl really bad and can't wait to get home.  Perfect time for Thanksgiving after being here and experiencing the depression and sadness of Sasha's little life and past. I have so very much to be thankful for...I have the greatest family and friends! More than that I have an awesome God that has brought me on this incredible journey.  I thought I was changing the life of one little orphan boy but little did I know it was my life that was being changed the most!!! Thank you sweet Jesus!

Trip #1, Days 1-4

We left for Russia on Monday night, the 16th of November.  We got very lucky and were able to get exit row seats, flight was on time and luggage made it all the way to St. Pete. Yay!!

St Pete airport was a little freaky because we had no translator to get us through Customs, but we made it.  Amazingly enough, as we were exiting the plane we met a lady from Georgia who was coming to meet her husband who works here and she was familiar with the customs process so she helped us out....God even handles the little details of our lives too:)

Oksana was there waiting for us at baggage claim and Sergei pulled right up and loaded our luggage and then we were off to our Hotel.  Oksana came in with us and made sure that the hotel got our visas registered and walked us to our room. She gave us our plans for the following day and prepared us for what to expect from the Adoption Committee meeting.  Oksana is a great translator, speaks very good English and is very thorough with her explanations. My only complaint for Sergei and Oksana is that they think my Russian/Georgia accent is humerous.....Sasha appreciates my efforts.

Now as far as our hotel goes....let's just say pictures on the internet are deceiving. I will be adding the Comfort Hotel to my list of things "Not to do in Russia". However, I am adjusting and the people are super helpful and speak good English. If I get a chance I will take a picture of the "Free" breakfast that I don't eat every morning.  You've gotta see the sausage and omelettes....and I am going to leave the porridge for the 3 little bears:)

Wednesday was our first whole day here.  We met with the committee...which consist of one lady at her desk in a little office with a computer.  She read us all of the information that she had for Sasha in the Russian database....basically name, birthdate, parents names and ages, when parental rights were removed, which orphanages he has been in and his health history. We were told not to ask any questions, sign the papers where they asked and say yes to the Russian pronunciation of our legal names.  Took about 15 minutes at the most.  This visit gave us permission to visit Sasha at the orphanage.

We left the committee and went directly to the orphanage. I was so excited to see Sasha and couldn't wait to see his expression when he saw us. I think he was actually told we were coming this week, but I don't think he knew exactly what day.  Needless to say the reunion was priceless!

We went to the Social Workers office, Zanaida, another great lady.  She was able to give us more info in regards to Sasha's past.  I had a feeling that Sasha had lived in an orphanage his whole life but the confirmation of the details were sad to hear.  Zanaida said that at 6 mos old Sasha got very sick and his parents took him to the hospital and never came back. Can you even imagine that? His parents still live in St Petersburg. She also said he has never known any of his relatives and they only have record of a paternal grandmother in St Petersburg. 

We visited for a couple of hours yesterday and today Nina, the adoption coordinator picked us up at 11am and we went back for a second visit for a couple of hours. I hate saying goodbye after our visits and I know Sunday when we see him for the last time this trip it's going to be extra hard leaving him....once again. I'll just hang on to the hope that we will all be together really soon, forever!

The visits have been very sweet and I have been trying to take lots of pictures so I can create a scrapbook for Sasha to have for years to come.  We have gotten to visit with alot of other children too and today while we were there one of the teachers asked Kevin and I to speak to her class in English...that was kinda cool and they had lots of questions about America.  Several of them said they really wanted to come to America for a visit.  The sad part is that most of the kids will never get the chance of seeing America or Adoption because these particular children were ages 13-16 and most will be picked over when people adopt.  Such a sad reality...Please pray for the children in the orphanage that want a family so desperately. We told them that maybe we can come back again next month when we come back for court and speak to them again.

So today we had a pretty short day with Sasha and when we got back to the hotel with took naps.  If any of you have been keeping up with us on Facebook, then you may know that we have not been able to sleep much at night...last night we slept from 10pm - 3pm then wide awake the rest of the time...In fact I think we instant messaged several people at 5am. 

Tonight we are going to try to get a full nights sleep because we have to be out of the hotel at 7am to go to a clinic for medical exams....blood drawn, chest xrays, ekg, etc...I'm scared to death of needles, so pray for me. 

Tonight we actually ventured a few blocks away to an area called Nevsky Prospect...huge shopping area in the center of town.  It was alot of fun seeing the sights. It's about 30 degrees here but the shops we went into were about 130 degrees...I don't know how they can stand it. Kevin said we had to go back to the room when I threatened to start undressing in the last shop.

Well that's all I can think of right now....need to update more frequently so not to be too long, but we've been busy and when we get back to the room my mind is mushy.  I'll try to keep up moving forward.

Keep the prayers coming!!

Trip #1

Today's the day!  We leave for St. Petersburg, Russia today.  Who in the world could have ever predicted this southern girl would be going to Russia.....I can't even roll my 'r's.

Seriously, this journey is not something I could have ever imagined. My life is being transformed from the inside out! God has done and continues to do an amazing work in and through my life. Although there have been many days along the way that I thought I can't do this, the bottom line is that I want to be obedient to God's call on my life. You know, sometimes obedience is tough and my flesh wants to take the easy route. In fact, sometimes it's down right scary to say "God, I want your will for my life....whatever it takes." but deep down that is all I really want....the un-known is very scary.

I had no trouble getting out of the bed today....the emotions woke me at 5am.  Excitement, Fear, Anxiety, Joy, Giddiness, Sadness to leave my baby girl, etc...please pray for us as we travel into this great big 'unknown'. Pray for our whole family. Especially today, pray for Allison.  She is sad for us to leave and be so far away. Pray especially for Allison in regards to how this journey will change her life. It is going to be hard and great all at the same time. Pray she will embrace her new role as a big sister. Pray she will not feel jealous or left out, but that she will feel this is as much a calling from God for her life as it is for ours.  I know the things God is going to teach us through this will make us all better people. This adoption is going to change us more than it will change Sasha, I'm sure.

This is the first trip of the final adoption process.  This week we will meet with the Adoption Committee in St. Pete, the orphanage director and have medical exams(joy). We will have alot of time to visit with Sasha at the orphanage and with any luck, maybe take him out of the orphanage for a little bit.

The next trip will be for court and should be before the end of the year. Then there is typically a third trip to bring him home, which is a couple of weeks after court.  We are praying that the judge would show favor and waive the 3rd trip and let us bring him home on the next trip. As excited as I am to go and see him this week, I am already dreading another goodbye.

Well, enough for now....I will do my best to keep you all updated throughout the week.  You all have been so sweet to take this ride with us...you're probably car sick by now:)

Hang on...Just a little bit further, we need you!

XOXO

~Angie

Pinch Me!!!!!!!!

Finally!! Monday November 2nd, we got the news.  We are scheduled to be in St. Petersburg, Russia on Wednesday, November the 18th for our meeting with the Adoption Committee.

We are frantically rushing to get 4 more documents done....notarized, apostilled and delivered to a family that is going to Russia on Sunday. We also are getting our visas and travel arrangements made as to get the best rates due to the short notice to travel.  Pray for all of that to go smoothly.

I cannot believe we are really going to Russia!  I have been so anxious to get this news and now that it's real, I'm freaking out!!  Now what??? Oh my goodness, we really are going to do this! God didn't shut the door and the time has come....we ARE adopting!  Oh good, oh no.  Can I do this? You can imagine the flood of emotions that I am experiencing right now. Deep down under the flutter in my gut I know I can do this and that everything will be ok because this is God's plan and he will not forsake me or leave me. Dt 31:8 "The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."

This of course will be the first trip and the second trip will be for our court date.  That should be sometime in December, I would imagine. 

I will definitely take lots of pictures and send lots of Facebook updates while we are there. It's going to be freezing cold in Russia and I have no idea what to pack.....so I better be going now!  Talk to you soon:)

No News to Report

Another week came and went, and no news to report in regards to a travel date.  I have been so blue.  I went to bed on Thursday night thinking "how can I go through another weekend of waiting" ?

Friday came and went and I cried......."Why"?

I decided that I should probably call Sasha and at least let him know that we didn't have anything to tell him, but that we were still working on getting to Russia and bringing him home forever. Praise the Lord, we were able to get him on the phone and he was his usual happy little self.  He asked who was making us wait and for lack of a good answer we just told him the Governor....I don't even know if they have governors in Russia:)  He seemed to be ok with that answer and quickly changed the subject to tell us to bring him lots of toys and surprises when we come. haha..

We had to cut the call kinda short because it was his dinner time and they were making him get off the phone but he asked that I call him again the next day because he had something to tell me. I have such a sweet Russian friend who translates for me,Irina and she said it would be fine to call again at the same time on Sunday. This morning we called again and were once again lucky to get him on the phone.  So what he needed to tell me was that on his way home from America this summer while changing planes he lost his backpack. I was so upset to hear that....mainly because we had made him a huge photo album to take back to have at the orphanage to remind him of his summer vacation with us. Not only was the album in there, but also his medicines, snacks, toys, letters.  The saddest part is that it has been almost 3 months and he was just telling me this, I guess for fear that I would be mad....poor fella. Well thank the Lord for technology, I have all of the photos on the computer and I can easily remake the album!

Anyway, one last funny for you and I'll be through......as we were finishing our phone call, once again he was heading to dinner and he was telling Kevin that the food there was yucky. (He didn't realize it was yucky until he came back from America) As he was telling Kevin "I love you" and "goodbye", he said "Papa, when you come to see me can you bring me a #3 from McDonalds?"....oh that silly boy!  I doubt he even remembers what a #3 is:)

Pray we get a travel date this week. 

October 19,2009

Well here it is the end of October and we are still waiting!  Shortly after Sasha went home this Summer our agency lost their accreditation and that put a huge stall in our process.  After 3 to 4 weeks of waiting to see what we were going to have to do we finally found out that we would have to transfer to another agency to complete the adoption.  We have been so happy with the change but of course it has presented it's own set of delays and extra expenses.

We have talked to Sasha about 3 times since his Summer visit and he has spent some more time in the hospital since he has been home too.  We are so anxious to bring him home for good and get him healthy. He is so excited to come back and just squeals on the phone when we talk about the time being near. 

We are anticipating to hear from the Russian Adoption Committee this week for our first travel date.  Hopefully we will get to travel within the next few weeks.  After the initial trip we wait for a court date and then we will return for a second time. Typically, the entire process requires 3 trips but we are praying that the judge will have favor on us because of Sasha's illness and allow us to bring him home on the second trip.

We ask that you please keep us in your prayers and that we will travel soon and that we will get the 3rd trip waived.  An additional trip would cost us several extra thousand dollars and it would be so awesome if we could save that money because Sasha will have to spend 3 weeks at Scottish Rite shortly after his return home for post adoption medical treatment and complete diagnosis for his Cystic Fibrosis......Please pray!

OH!!! I almost forgot to tell you.....we got USCIS approval!!!!  Huge Huge Huge Praise to God!!!!! :)  :)  :)

Sad, Sad Day.

Well Sasha had to go back to Russia yesterday and it was much rougher than I expected.  The little fella cried and hugged my neck so hard.  It broke my heart to see him cry and melted my heart to hear him snuff out "I love you, Mama" in English.  He learned quite a few words while he was here and even translated a little for his friends at the airport...so cute:)

The next step is to get USCIS approval and finish the docs for our dossier so we can take our first trip to Russia....hopefully in September.

To be honest with you, the six weeks were much harder than I expected.  I wasn't prepared physically for the high level of energy and I was definitely not prepared mentally for the adjustment to our house rules :)  There was alot more defiance than I was expecting but every week into the visit got easier and easier as we stayed consistent to discipline and love. I'm sure alot was testing to see if we could be trusted to stay true to him.  We passed!!

I know we will have a lot more to get through when he comes back, but I feel we made huge progress and the foundation has been started. I have to keep reminding myself of the life this little guy has had and what we are dealing with. I know I will never fully understand all that he has endured.  Our trip over to the orphanage will be eye opening I'm sure.

The nights when I fell into bed so totally exhausted I would pray "God, are you sure this is what you want ME to do?"  I thought for sure I had misunderstood somewhere along the way.  Everywhere I turn I am reminded that this is not about me....I didn't choose this journey to grow my family or to fulfill some crazy desire for more children...God chose me to care for the orphans (he even sent me the one he wanted me to care for, how much clearer does it get, duh.)and this is entirely about being obedient to God's calling on my life.  At the moment I am very content with that calling....but please don't stop praying because there will still be days when my flesh wants to give up and the enemy tries to make me fall down and be defeated.

Thank you to everyone that has prayed for us!